這樣的工作方式需要投入很多的精力和情感，同時(shí)會(huì)犧牲一些職業(yè)化，但它可以避免單調(diào)重復(fù)，因?yàn)榧夹g(shù)層面上的復(fù)制是可能的，藝術(shù)層面卻永遠(yuǎn)需要?jiǎng)?chuàng)新。

（一）

　　閑云野鶴的生活結(jié)束了，一個(gè)月的休息讓我對(duì)人生的意義有了新的理解。我把自己投入到新東方給我安排的新的工作里，我終于從自己狹小的世界里走出來(lái)，學(xué)習(xí)向身邊的人打開(kāi)心靈的窗戶；注意力一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)從純粹形而上的問(wèn)題上挪開(kāi)，再一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)開(kāi)始關(guān)注現(xiàn)世的問(wèn)題。

　　所以，最近考慮的問(wèn)題不只是李安的《色，戒》如何區(qū)別于張愛(ài)玲的，還有工作——當(dāng)然不是單純意義上的工作，而是融入了我的那些奇怪想法的工作。在負(fù)責(zé)老師培訓(xùn)的工作里，我開(kāi)始思考一個(gè)問(wèn)題：職業(yè)化和美感可以共存嗎？

當(dāng)許多人整日面對(duì)一大堆麻煩時(shí)，他們考慮的重點(diǎn)肯定是如何運(yùn)用方便的方式解決這些麻煩，然后會(huì)習(xí)慣性的重復(fù)這種方便的方式，這樣做有很多優(yōu)勢(shì)，尤其從效率角度考慮，但它的劣勢(shì)是會(huì)讓自己的思想很快變得標(biāo)準(zhǔn)化，成為體制化的一部分。

我在那段不太入世的生活里，也許并不只是虛度時(shí)光，無(wú)意中學(xué)會(huì)了一種能力，就是在解決技術(shù)層面問(wèn)題的同時(shí)，還能在藝術(shù)層面增加一些美感。這種能力已經(jīng)變成了一種習(xí)慣，讓我在瑣碎中避免重復(fù)，每天為自己制造出一些小小的欣喜。

（二）

　　美感可以是極淺層次的。譬如，決不因?yàn)榉泵ε铑^垢面，任何時(shí)候都讓自己看起來(lái)很漂亮；請(qǐng)人吃飯時(shí)能選擇讓他舒服的餐廳，不僅填飽肚子，還能讓他若干日后想起，內(nèi)心懷有眷戀；等等。當(dāng)然，這是很低的層次，許多物質(zhì)主義的擁護(hù)者在這方面做了很多修煉，據(jù)說(shuō)，他們被稱作“小資”。成大事者對(duì)此往往不屑。

　　前幾天，在一件小事上，我感受到一個(gè)更高的層次。除了外在的美感，更有力量的美感來(lái)自思想和情感。當(dāng)一個(gè)人和其他人交流時(shí)，他的一段話除了解決某個(gè)問(wèn)題，還能讓聽(tīng)者對(duì)更廣泛?jiǎn)栴}進(jìn)行思考，并在思考的過(guò)程中獲得審美的愉悅。

　　我遇到的事情是這樣的，一些老師報(bào)名參加英語(yǔ)沙龍，未出現(xiàn)也沒(méi)請(qǐng)假。其實(shí)，這樣的事天天都在發(fā)生，我們可以選擇視而不見(jiàn)，也可以選擇提出批評(píng)，我想，或許還有另一種方式。我發(fā)出了這樣一封郵件。

Dear all,

You are going to read lovely words portraying an enjoyable afternoon spent in Greenary café with witty conversation. These words serve as the review of our second English salon, which was hosted by Virginia and June. Yet, I need to mention a few things that may not be so enjoyable. It is not that I intend to be a wet blanket, but that I personally find it necessary to attach some importance to what is gradually assumed to be less important.

I guess most of us have watched Sex and City and still remember the first episode. It is about an English journalist dating an investment banker. More than kissing and caressing, they made love; more than making love, they drove to the man’s newly bought house, looking at the decoration plans. That night, the man dropped the woman at her apartment and reminded her of their dinner plans for Tuesday. On Tuesday, he called and said he would have to take a rain check. After a two-week long rain check, she called him and he said he would call her later. And of course, he never did. When the innocent journalist was relating her experience with bewilderment in her eyes, a few words showed on the screen: Welcome to the Age of Un-Innocence.

Some teachers who entered for our activity did not show up! “This is normal.” I was told by our peaceful secretary, who had obviously accustomed herself to such uninformed absence. Enthusiasm wanes. This is human nature and totally understandable. We sometimes have to change our plans, because plans are interrupted by unpredictable and capricious incidents. This is life and also understandable! But are we so busy that we do not get round to making a phone call? A phone call takes 1 minute, but it frees our hostesses from anxious expectation and deep frustration.
The man in the story disappeared. Behind this uninformed disappearance, there is a message: you don’t have to be so serious! After all, this is also an age of Un-seriousness. Everyday, we are busy receiving this message and, at the same time, sending the message to people around us. Perhaps, this characterizes our age. Besides, this also leaves scars.

（三）

　　這樣的工作方式需要投入很多的精力和情感，同時(shí)會(huì)犧牲一些職業(yè)化，但它可以避免單調(diào)重復(fù)，因?yàn)榧夹g(shù)層面上的復(fù)制是可能的，藝術(shù)層面卻永遠(yuǎn)需要?jiǎng)?chuàng)新。

　　對(duì)我而言，人生的意義除了存在，還有感受；做許多事情，除了讓別人認(rèn)可，還要讓自己內(nèi)心愉悅。

　　我希望自己在忙碌中，能一直有這樣的心情，看著落葉起舞，想象自己置身其中，感受秋天的氣息，驚嘆自然創(chuàng)造美的神奇力量。
 

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